balance

spitting shitfaced bullshit belligerently
silly thoughtless thought unsullied by examination
from without
without fear of retribution
without grace or style or any other element
without myself to blame

i was drunk once at a party
telling everybody how old i was
and that i loved them

i was drunk again last night
telling myself not to know
it wasn't the same

straining to stand on foreign land
when all land feels foreign
from within
(as long as being is fine,
as long as i can be mine) is fine to me
as long as i can balance my bellicose verbiage

JWR